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I'm All Better!
Topic Started: Apr 2 2009, 11:25 AM (478 Views)
Seta
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Once the tourney and the alliance saga is over I will be taking a short break to figure out why I feel so off. I don't like how I'm feeling. I just feel...off. I can't explain it. I don't feel really rundown or anything, it's just...Ugh, I can't explain it. I will only be on to approve updates and such like. I just...I'm pissing people off that are my friends, without meaning to, or trying to, or wanting to. It's...I really can't explain it. I haven't lost my motivation, but maybe I have slipped into insanity. Who knows? I just know I can't keep posting on here, saying what I do, when I feel this way. A lot of times I don't even remember what I've said, or understand how it can be seen as wrong. I just...my brain is fucked up, and it's really hurting that I can't figure out what is wrong.

My dad made a theory that there may be something in our house, or in our neighborhood, that is causing my mother and me to feel like this. He spends less time than we do in the home, so we'd be inhaling it or whatever more than he does. This is just a theory, I myself don't care to believe it. But I know something is going on. It's not my medication, I've been taking it for years without this stuff happening and my mum and I don't share prescriptions or similar drugs.

I just...I don't know.

I'm sorry to all I've upset, I'm sorry for my behavior that seems weirder than usual. At this moment of clarity...of sanity...whatever you want to call it, I am able to write this. Who knows when the next 'episode' will strike. But it's kind of scaring me. Especially when I feel pissed at people I've never been pissed at before. Including my girlfriend.

I'm just...I'm sorry. I'm writing this a week or so ahead of time, as a warning. Hopefully someone can help me out with my column. I still hope I can go through and approve updates and continue with my job, and in no way am I resigning. I just...I need to figure things out. I will not be RPing in this time frame, but if anyone needs a spar while I'm figuring myself out, feel free. Though I will apologize in advance if something doesn't make sense.

~Pan, The Saiyan Bitch
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Hm... Well Pan-chan. I for one will miss having you around; well, totally around.

I don't have a big speech or anything, but, I wuv yah Pan-chan, seriously hope this thing passes.

-Signed, Phalanges!
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I think you're being mind fucked by a ghost.
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Who knows, I just know I don't feel in my right mind 90% of the time. And even now i feel the 'strangeness' coming upon me, so I have to write quickly.

Thanks Digu, I do too. It's been happening the last week or so. I'm out of the house more than my mother, so maybe that's why it struck her quicker and harder than it did me. Who knows? I'm sure the doctors wouldn't be able to figure it out, they've done so many tests on my mother. Maybe my clothes have been poisoned? Needless to say I. Don't. Know. I wish I did. But I can't do this, I can't lose the friends I have. I firmly believe if I truly am delving into madness that my friends have delayed it this far.
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WAIT

Wasn't this supposed to happen a few weeks ago?

Its like you were taking a hiatus from a hiatus only to go on another hiatus.

Oh, welcome to the human population, by the way. Everyone goes through physical and mental changes/cycles throughout their lifetime. There is no such thing as normalcy and there are no exceptions.
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Aw, Pannypie. :[ Feel better soon.

How old are you again? 19? 20? Everyone tends to go through similar things between the ages of 18-21. It's a bunch of tl;dr neuro wank, but in a nutshell, YOU IS CHANGIN' MAYNE.

I'll talk to you around, dahling. Be well.
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Did no one read? My mother is going through the same thing. Here's a little background:

One day she got in the car after going to church. she drove MILES AND MILES with her mind out of whack. She got to a gas station, had NO FUCKING CLUE how she got there! She called my dad multiple times and hung up every time he picked up, because she was not in her right mind. I am not biologically related to this woman, before any of you says anything. My dad finally got her to stay on the phone and hand her phone over to a stranger at the gas station. He got her out of the car, got her some crackers and juice, and my dad had to leave his work in the middle of teaching a class and run to get her.

Then weeks later she felt "off" again. She FELL AND CRACKED HER HEAD OPEN. BLOOD WAS EVERYWHERE. It was past midnight. We had to rush her to the hospital. she had no real recollection when she fell, or what she hit her head on. She didn't know if she blacked out, she was just CONFUSED. You could see it in her eyes.

My mother is in her 50's, I have just turned 20. How the fuck could we both be going through these states of confusion? Of feeling off?
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April Fools is over.
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It's not an April Fool's Alex. I wish it were, but it isn't.
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Out of left field, its Razak!

I might follow you to the ends of the Earth, Alex.
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When your mom gets old enough, you should put her in a home.
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Heaven forbid I tell you guys what the hell is up with me, so you don't wonder when my activity slows. Seems Digu and Bra are the only ones who have any real sympathy. Heaven forbid I try to say I'm going to take my problems elsewhere so I can figure them out and not take it out on everyone.

I was only trying to explain myself, and what my plans are to fix things. I have always been told to try to fix the problem, and that is what I'm going to do. This is saying that, and I would appreciate it if you take it as is, instead of giving me some bullshit about it being an April Fool or telling me to put my mother in a home.

Next time you guys have a problem, don't even bother to IM me about it if this is how you treat my problems. At least I have the decency and the feeling of responsibility to give a warning of any impending absences there may be from me.
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I opened this topic to say I feel much better now, my 'episodes' are rare now. Too bad I couldn't get better before my match with Yamcha in the RP tourney ended. Oh well. I'm back to full form! I think...
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Guess we wont know till you have to fight me in a roleplay tournament again. I have been know to give people mysterious bouts of insanity, so just a warning.
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lol. Well *shrug* we can always have a practice match between now and then?
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FACK. Back already?! I was enjoying the vacation. :P
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Ha ha, you so funny!
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Welcome back, Pan-chan! I missed you. D:
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Thanks Digu, even though I wasn't technically 'gone'. XD
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^_^ Still missed yah!
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Pan was gone?
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Not technically Ra. Just...less active than usual.

@Digu: you're a sweetie. :)
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Digu....got somethin brown on your nose mate. ; )

Ok Pan, we cared. Ur back now... so now we can resume not caring, yes? XD
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Hardy har, A'Grahl. Anyways, locking this back up.
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